The contest was for sales in a particular category. The top three reps in that category in the district get a pizza party for thier store. I was number one, the other two were from two different stores. So yeah, I won the thing for the store, and I agree I should then be allowed to call the shots and just ask the regional director to get cheeseless pizzas or just get something else entirely.
It's just hard because it's a really weird environment where ethics are kind of glossed over in general. Not in the official handbook culture of the company of course, but it's just how things are in reality. It's commission sales for an indirect retailer that kind of exists specifically to act outside of it's corporate partner's culture and policies. It's just the kind of place where slippery tricksters thrive, and it's sad to say but they're the ones who kind of run the show. Not that I'm intimidated by anybody, it's just that it's not a professional enough environment that the people involved will feel the need to avoid making rude comments about the whole thing. And it'll end up making me really upset and angry, and that's not conducive to my own success in sales which is my livelihood.
It's just not a place that will go for having a meal that I order without a bunch of dudes loudly giving me crap for it. They think they're being funny, but it makes me really upset. I just feel like I literally can't afford to put myself in that headspace when I have to still be on my game and be upbeat and competitive and charming to my customers when there's all that tension.
Like, there was one time I ran out to get food, and my coworker wanted to give me money to pick him up a beefy taco thing. This was long before taking the pledge, but I wasn't comfortable doing that. So I offered to get him a bean taco thing instead, and I even offered to pay for it. Everybody acted like I was being so dumb, and it really pissed me off all day. Another time I got coffee on my way in and I called and asked if anybody wanted me to grab them one, and one guy said yeah thanks. So I brought it in with a bunch of sugars on the side (there was no milk alternative at the place and he never told me how he took it), but he and everyone else acted like it was really lame of me to not bring creamer too. And it just ruins my day when it goes down like that, and it's just hard, yanno? Cause then I gotta still be cool and do my job which really requires you to be upbeat and pleasant.
But that's why I took this pledge, right? Because I'm tired of passive non-action, and I want to speak up even when it's uncomfortable. Because it would ALSO plot me in a funky bad mood to have all this animal stuff bought in my name. I do have to at least say something. I just wish this wasn't happening. I didn't even know this stupid contest was happening. I sold the stuff because its my livelihood and how I provide for my family, I could care less about free lunch contests.
And the guy who is buying the pizzas doesn't work at my store, so email is usually the way we communicate with him. Otherwise I would talk to him about it in person. I found out about the whole thing through an email announcement.